I'm just too lazy to do anything. Practically homework and other stuff. Sure... Top boy in class when i don't understand a shit. Chemistry and Add Math especially. Why did Form 4 have to be such a horrible year for me? I enjoyed my Form 3 life, even though i didn't get the results i wanted. But I had fun! And killed my joy 1 and 1/2 months before PMR. But oh well... Great fun will come to an end sooner or later. Sampah yang dibuang di tempat yang sama lama-kelamaan akan menjadi gunung busuk.

And something's screwy with blogger. My fonts' are gay and all these stupid formulas keep popping out when i try to bold or italic my fonts. Oh well.. Stupid. I might fail terribly this year, but i won't give up. Normally the first test or the first exam will wake me up. It's gonna be very fast, SPM's gonna come, I'm gonna go overseas (i hope), start driving, start working, get married, have a family... Wow... that's like so fast. I'm afraid of what's to come. :/

been playing DotA a lot lately. Especially v6.66b. Awesome version :O 6.64b is so old school. Mark's my DotA buddy. I'm his DotA buddy. AI is our DotA buddy when there's no humans to play with. Meh... I feel like i'm going through a turmoil. Man... This sucks. I hate this feeling. And when the heck am i gonna get my books. xD Oh oh! Speaking of buying, I have something i MIGHT be getting very soon. Take a look.



I have the money, I just don't have the transport. Or should i just get this straight?



The Pod X3 live looks nicer because of its buttons and the pedal. But this is sure to be more expensive. Meh.. I'll settle with the Pod xt Live :)

Homework homework homework. Kebiasaan yang tidak menepati janji.

What a way to start off the new month. With a homework essay. Enjoy

She reached out her hand to uncover the black cloth covering the figure. As she reached for the cloth, she paused for a moment. Being a sissy that she was, did she dare uncover that cloth? She dug up all her courage and reached for it. As she felt the cloth, it was wet and sticky. Then, she uncovered it and screamed at the top of her lungs. There she saw a head of a baby, bloody it was. As she screamed, a face appeared out of nowhere, laughing maniacally, and staring her in the eyes.

Her name is Alma Layne. A genius in deciphering riddles and codes, but also a psychotic person. When she was seven, she was experimented on to be a super genius. But that failed terribly. Although she became a genius, she was never sane again. That experiment scarred her for life. Now she lives alone, in the home for mental people. Many have tried to cure her from this, but their biggest mistake was experimenting on that poor girl. Separated from her parents since birth, she never knew who she was.

Life was tough for her. But one night, everything changed. As she stared at the face that was laughing maniacally, she was petrified at the sight of the red, bloody eyes. Without hesitation, it slashed her right arm off. Awakened by the pain she felt, she realized that this was no dream.

She got up and jumped through the window off the third floor. Luckily for her, she had branches to break her fall. She landed without an arm, and some cracked ribs. She shouted for help, but there was nobody in that area. It was only a matter of time before it came chasing for her. So she started running without direction, crying, seeking help from above, but no. What came from above was rain, which cleared the fog. Thank God for that.

Due to her blurred vision because of the amount of blood lost, she hit a tree branch and began to lose consciousness. The last thing she saw was the face again. This time, with more sharpness. The eyes seemed to be crying tears of blood. This was the last thing she saw, before she got stabbed.

As she was stabbed, she heard these last words. ‘Forgive me my sister’. It was her brother. As she lost the sight, she awoke from her sleep in cold sweat. It was just a bad dream. None of that ever happened. It was all a bad dream. She is alive and happily living with her family of three in North Carolina.

Note :- This is a story. Not a real story. Lmao xD

Did it give you the heebie jeebies? if it did, good. if it didn't it sucks. and yes it sucks to me> :)

And here we go again... It's already the end of month one. Start of month two. And I'm already behind in homework. Ugh.... This sucks big time. I can't even remember what homework I have or not. Ish... Which really is a stupid mistake. I shouldn't even be making those mistakes anymore. I'm one year older and one year wiser and one year more tembak-ed with responsibilities. I know that Form 4 isn't a honeymoon year, but it's just so hard to let go of it. I guess tuition helps with the studies, but it piles the homework up, which I think i just can't cope with. What's worse is that of the responsibilities. I have to get a new study station. One without a bed and computer. So tempting to sleep and play. Ahhhhhhhhhh.... Very the susah.

So many things i want to do, so little time. The co-curricular activities are also a pain in the ass. I have to go home at 6.15pm once every week. Stupid house practice. And when that's no bad enough, sports on Thursdays until 6.15pm... I hate that. Why can't it just be like last year? When it's on Friday and I have more time to do my own stuff. Heed my warning, don't join the Reka Cipta club. It is boring and stupid...... Not my type of club. Hahahaha ever since my CF closed down, I've been going nuts. Woooohoooo! I'm still sane. I'm still sane.

There're still some people in my mind i can't let go off. Slowly... Slowly.... :O

Have to let go. have to let go! Arghhhh!! Tomorrow is February and I don't wanna make the mistakes in January. Lets go.

Apparently, I'm still taking life very easy.

I hate Form 4. Forever and ever and ever! I think Form 4 and 5 will be one of the worst years of my secondary school life. The homework is crazy. I mean... There's homework even when the teacher doesn't say anything!? (I listen in class... It's sejarah. What to do?) Damn it man. The homework never finishes, there's too many deadlines, there're too many things to do. So many things to sacrifice while at home and school. I've developed the tendency to listen better in class though. I just don't focus enough. :S

The Chemistry teacher is talking shit. I don't understand what the heck he's talking about. It's so nonsensical to have new teachers teaching important subjects. Yes they have to have a life and earn a living but teach that to the other classes! Give us the good but boring ones! I don't care! As long as we understand then it's good. Meh... I guess I'll just have to torture myself. No more computer for some time!? D: NOOOOO!! That's bad. Studying puts me to sleep. How will i survive this? :( If i don't learn during these two years, college and uni will be very the bad.

Somehow, when i look back, i loved those years of having fun. Now, people are growing, they're leaving for studies, working. I hate 2010. I hope it turns out better. No wait... I know it'll turn out better. I have my God with me. I have Jesus! I'll find my peace in Him, i'll find my strength through Him for the Joy of the Lord is my strength! I won't give up! No way! Even if i give up, i know He'll pick me up and get me on the right track again. Lets do this..

It's happening. Here, in Penang. Tonight (23/1/2010) @ Excel Point Community Church.

WildFire P.A.R.T.Y2 is happening tonight! Can't wait for it! In just a matter of hours it'll all begin! We'll get pumped up. We'll go mad! We'll be awesome!
We ARE the REVOLUTION

I've tried out Wordpress earlier just now, and i find it to be confusing, handy and at the same time bitchy. One reason is because everybody uses the same font and I don't like that font. Another reason is because the page is quite complicated (but pretty) I had to look around for the "publish" button. Ugh... Talk about annoying... Also, if you put up labels, it instantly gets transferred to their search engine, allowing everyone to see your posts and all. I guess wordpress is more for journalists and serious bloggers. Imma stick to this one. And maybe, just maybe, all my serious posts will just go to Wordpress. This is my link AchKeelYou.

The good thing about Wordpress is that it has word counters and is a little faster than blogspot. Why? I pun tak tau. But its awesome. Blogspot should really put in word counters. It'll come in handy at times. It also has smileys! Awesome!

Lets skip that topic,

It don't matter. Cause I'm going nuts. I don't feel like going on... nuuuuuuuuuuuuu Cause cause cause! I just am. Form 4 hasn't been easy so far. Well.... Maybe the first day, that was very easy. Slept in class. On the first day of school. Wow.... I'm awesome. The stress has already caught up on me and it's not supposed to until after February. Ohmygosh.... This is seriously not good. Maybe I just can't cope with the subs? Or is it that i just can't cope with the students who drive me mad in class? Headaches occur, even the teachers can't stand it! I mean... 49 students!? That's just stupid. What's worse is that I'm sitting at the back row. Here's the equation.

Today, I just found out at around 8.23pm, is Rubber Ducky Day! So lets all get rubber duckies and have fun with it on the 13th of January every year! Technically, I have a rubber ducky, but it doesn't squeek (yes it squeeks and not quacks) so i don't play with it anymore. The last time when it was new, i actually smelled it (yes i smelled it) and it smelled like milk powder. :O that smell is way addictive. xD

I hate school today. Go figure. You wanna know the reason why I hate it? First off is because I have no CF. Did you know that CF and Buddhist Society in my school has been running illegally since the year 2000? WHO THE FISH KNEW!? Honestly, who the heck knew? If it was illegal, why let it be in the co-curricular activities list huh? WHY!? ANSWER ME! Who's gonna answer me? I'm mad at the Kementerian and maybe just a little mad at the NECF. I have no idea why i'm mad at the NECF, but i'll let that slide. I told myself this, if i get kicked out because i want my CF back, so be it. I'm still thinking, what stupid impact will i make? Besides, the population of the school is like 2.5/4 Indians, 1/4 Malays and o.5/4 Chinese. STUPID TAU. I can live with that. But the fact that the face the students have give you the "racist" punya look. Screw them.

OH! Before i forget, to all those readers who are still schooling and have CF in school, only MY
school's CF got closed down. If the letter spreads, every CF in Penang might be closed down. So you better pray for these corrupted retarded people. Now, I'm just standing still. not doing anything. YET. I'll do whatever it takes to get my CF and the buddhist society back. I'm not just gonna sit back like one sonnwabeetch and do nothing.

I feel like transferring to another school. SMKBJ maybe. They have better things there. They have floorball! Besides, I might even do better with the less people in the classes. HOW CAN ANYONE STUDY WITH 49 BLOODY NOISY STUDENTS?!

Freaks. I'm starting to hate the Government in Malaysia. Who knows, one day, i might even blacklist my own country. == Meh, but don't count on it. I'm all talk and no play.

Corruption is the right word to use now. Honestly, why is this happening in a multi-racial country? Its so sad to see the things that are happening in OUR country, Malaysia. I mean... Isn't it supposed to be peaceful? Instead , a feud about the Allah thing is going on more and more aggressively and a church has been burnt down. This are all happening in KL people. Sad to say, they're giving themselves a bad name. Ish... More and more churches are beginning to be targeted and well... They're using Molotov bombs! What the heck do they think this is? Left 4 Dead?

This is real, serious and insulting. Do we Christians destroy their place of worship? No. and we SHOULDN'T. Seriously, don't do it. if we do, war will rage. Interstate war. :O

Lets just pray for our country. Haiz... Disappointing it is

Okay okay! Forget about the other resolutions, not that i do complete them anyway. What you have read from this blog, forget about it. :) I have other plans. Only one reso this year.

1. Study hard. xD

Seriously people, I have a feeling that 2010 is a year of second chances. Whatever that means. x) Anyways, Form 4 has been... so far... Sleepy. :O Seriously, I can name you 3 reasons why!

1. I have fat and smelly classmates who stinks up and releases more heat into the classroom. And yes, they are indian and malay, the boys anyway. Their stinking up the room is like exhaling chloroform... which is made out of chlorine and something else.
2. I have boring teachers. Except for my English/History teacher. He's awesome. But he fails to keep me awake.
3. I just feel sleepy. Hehh...

I know the 3rd one isn't a good reason and the first one is like a racist remark, but it's all true. I have 46 people in my class and majority of them are indian. Bulky, fat, smelly indians. I wonder whether they even shower in the morning... Hmmmm... And currently, these are the subjects that are freaking me out.

i. Chemistry
ii. BM
iii. Moral

I haven't even met my Add Math/ Modern Math teacher yet. Ish... :( I'm gonna have a hard time this year. I'd better not mess this year up. Seeing as there's gonna be competition, and i mean A LOT of competition, I'd better get started once i get my books. Yes, I like to procrastinate. Apparently, harbingers of doom are real. xD I know that, but in my school, oh how i wish I wasn't in that school. But noooo, fate decided that I'd get four stinkin' As for my PMR!!!!

What can I do? Only hope for the best, study smart, and kick ass.

On the side note, I am... somewhat proud to say... That i am...

Hey all! I'm finally back in Penang after being in KL for a few days! :) And school's starting tomorrow! Oh dear! But no worries. I'm mentally prepared for what's to come. Nothing's perfect right? Been reading the book Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris and I have to say, that's a really good book about relationships and what not. Have to get his first book, I Kissed Dating Goodbye. Boy Meets Girl is towards marriage and stuff. But nonetheless, it's a good book.

Also, I'm the new proud owner of the Sony Ericsson W395! Woot!
This is thanks to my brother (the one who conned me with the iPhone box xD) , brother-in-law and also sister. Many thanks to you three. Which also means no birthday+christmas presents for 5 years! :O Oh well, not that i expect anything anyway. Hahahah :D

Nothing much to post already. Heh... Won't be updating for some time unless I feel like it. Have priorities to make now. Big boy d LOL.And i have a feeling, 2010 is gonna be a harsh year.

God's interested in the journey, not the destination - Joshua Harris

Hey all. It's finally 2010 and I feel old! I'm already form 4 this year. :O ish ish... oh well.. Am in KL and will only be going back tomorrow, which is sunday and i haven't bought my school uniform yet! omgosh! Hahahah. Anyway, it's my first time being in 1 Utama. Seeing as my hotel was One World hotel, it's connected to 1Utama. So free time, we go there. LOL i bought a new pair of school shoes, Nike+ running shoes and to my blessed life, a new pair of jeans! :D man i tell you, finding the right pair of jeans is hard! :) My brother's wearing my shoes now. It's gonna get muddy and dirty. T_T and it's brand new. Aiyoh! Oh well... Nyway...

The wedding dinner was good. When the in laws get drunk, theya re funnehhh! ahahaha :D I love my new family. They're awesome. And i might be getting a new phone thanks to the newly weds. Heheh. :D i love em to bits!

Another event was that i lost a friend due to a certain reason which cannot be disclosed here. I have no idea why but we're not contacting anymore. Sad way to start a new year.

Also, Im still 15. >D this is the advantage of being a december baby. LOL the disadvantage is you get things later than others. Such as driving license. LOL xD And i still have to depend on people to fetch me everywhere. I feel so burdensome xD (:

A few resolutions for this year.

1. get a life
2. prioritize properly
3. get better in guitar-playing
4. aim higher. :)
5. control issues. xD

I know that i don't have a last post for new year's. But all as well... There're people i like to thank. And i don't wanna put names cause if i forget to put their name, they'll think that i don't remember them. therefore, no names :D

I jus tlike to thank those who made 2009 really a great year for me. Through troubles or good times, you always helped me. No matter how down i was, you guys made me smile. As well as my sister( you know who you are) , i'm glad to be your little brother. And to the others, i understand that i might not be the perfect friend, but still, thanks for all your company. I really appreciated it. Love all of you guys to bits, from church, school and other circles.

Romance says "this is what I want and its good for me." Wisdom leads us to consider what's best for others.

Love all of you even if you do hate me.

This is the puppy at my grandfather's place. Her name is Jessie. :D

At times like this... I need someone. :(

At times like this... I have to stop slacking and depend on God

The end is near! It is near! We've had our ups and downs but who cares! :D

Food for thought... What does the devil do on the 3rd day?

Sometimes it's hard to get what you want, especially when you worked hard for it. Things like that don't come by often. Then again, when you get that something you deserve you feel guilty cause you did something that ALLOWED you to get it. And when you don't get something, you blame people, you blame God, you blame the leaders... But do you ever blame yourself? I'm afraid, I'm lost, I'm desperate. But then again, being that means bitch talk.A little bit of harshness in this post so it seems... What to say? Right now, I have nothing to say. Sure I'm thankful for the new computer, I'm thankful that there're people congratulating me. But for what? You all should know and we all know it. The one thing I ask is that STOP BLOODY ASKING ME. Jeez.... Some people irritate me, some people just want to rub it in. Go ahead. Just because your results are better than mine, doesn't always mean you are better.

As time grows, memories fade, people die, time never lets you have a second chance.Which is why, everything's different. Things change. There are some faces which i hope i NEVER EVER see again. On the side note, there are the people who seem to be weaker than you, but actually appear to be stronger. I've lost to people. I've lost to my friend. I've put as much effort into it as he did, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be. The more i think about it, the more i want to crack. And when i try to forget about it, that bloody piece of paper, stuck at the back of my head, in between the wooden table and glass, haunting me for the next two years or so. I've thought through this post, don't think I just type things as they come. I actually think like you people. Not everyone can get it right? That's another line which I hope to quote, one of the worst ever.

I have no idea whether this is a middle-age post or a long one...... Oh screw that, I blame the government for the corrupted parties. I blame races for racism. I blame the students in my school for being idiots. And i blame their parents for not taking care of their bloody kids. If you people observe enough, there are plenty of people to kill and dice. I blame the societies, clubs and uniform bodies for not taking care of their stupid members. Leaders of tomorrow my ass. I don't believe that concept in my school anymore.

I expected six. Oh how i was telling everyone that I'm expecting at least six. And on the 24th, hope was destroyed. Crushed, mashed into bits and disintegrating into thin air. I declare the 24th of December 2009 to be the worst Christmas Eve ever. I don't think any of my resolutions for this year got achieved. Then again... I don't think i was any successful this year. So far, i thought i was doing well enough to achieve my goal. But i guess i was wrong. Lesson, never be over confident. That suck-up attitude makes you a loser. I used to think, I could beat them. But I guess i was wrong. The little imperfections in life makes everything perfect. That my friend, is just a saying. Is it true? I look at people sitting by the roadside, begging under the tree, being tortured, them suffering because some bitch-ass idiots don't have any pity on them. What do I do? I just pass on, as if nothing happened when deep down, I wish i could help them. This is where pride takes over.

All I can do is cry silently... Cry in the inside, lying to myself by saying "you're still better than them". When i know that's not true. I feel that, my first three years of secondary school has been a waste... Getting results that were below expectation. If I had gotten five, i still wouldn't mind. Losing two As isn't as bad. But three? THREE? I look at facebook, the newspapers, getting smses, through msn... It's as if the people i know got the better side, and I'm the lowest among all of them. That makes me inferior. And the one thing I'm afraid of is, they'll just chuck me to one side, saying "he isn't as smart as us ; he's different ; he's not worth our time ; don't take him as a partner, he'll just waste our effort; etc..." Seeing as they get the achievements that they receive, i have a feeling, next year is gonna be different. It's gonna be hell. It's not gonna be easy. I feel stupid. Sometimes, i do wish that i could just give it all away. I want to quit. I want to give in. Let the rest take care of it. Nobody's helping me.

Maybe i should, maybe i might... Maybe i will. The more i look at it. The more hopeless i see the students in my school are. The more i think that i'm no different from them. And the best word for my school = RETARD :) i just put a smiley face there. It indicates that I'm happy. There's something in my heart, that's making me fearful. Am i afraid that I can't keep up? Or is it that I've been slacking somewhere. I've been giving up. I've been one heck of a disappointment. poo...

:D this is so cute. xD it's my background!